Hmmm
06.16.2005 - 7:02 pm

I just got 3 cd's in the mail: Garden State soundtrack, Flaming Lips, and Gorillaz. I'm obsessed with the Coldplay song and Flaming Lips' "Yoshimi Battles Pink Robots." I bought a walkman today at Bestbuy and with it came 5 free downloads (omg!) and I downloaded two more Coldplay songs and Cramps and Belle and Seastian and The Darkness. I keep listening to those 3 Coldplay songs over and over and over. They make me sad in a way. They make me think of Dawn and being in San Diego. I Know when I go back to Hawaii they are going to make me really depressed because I'm gonna wanna be in California with my friends. =/ hmm.

Robbie* called me today and I feel bad everytime he calls because I'm such a boring person on the phone. But it's sweet that he tries. He's such an awesome person. I hope to see him in Japan, I really do. I'll know if I just see him. That's all it'll take... just to hang out with him. And I'll know for sure. ::sigh:: I'm in such a difficult situation with boys. Why is it that when you want someone (anyone), there's no one to be found, and then when you are either not interested or you want to be good and with one person... then it's WAM BAM thank you ma'am and there's tons of opportunities. So LAME. Then again, they aren't the best opportunities and so it's quite easy to make the decision of "no." Zac = too much weed, too much 'spoiled rich kid' attitude, too immature. Wes = slightly too immature. But I've spent so little time with Wes and he has a lot of potential for turning out pretty good... but... eh, immature. grr. And Robbie is awesome, but... I have to see him to know for sure. Such shit.

I've been so tired and moody lately. Periods suck. Though greatful for them at times; they are bleh. I sleep so much. I think these past 3 weeks are just catching up with me is all. And the chaos starts again this weekend. I need to call Dawn tomorrow and perhaps I will go straight to San Diego when I get done seeing Death By Stereo. I hope the show doesn't sell out because I REALLY don't wanna go through ASSmaster. Fuck their 'convenience' charges. ASSSSSSS. My ass hurts.

yesterday - tomorrow